I Miss Being Pregnant

yeah.....and I've already had thoughts of having a second one - ME - Errolyn - the self-professed child hater! That was the old me....now every child is so cute and whatever they do is adorable....

Julian is growing well, he's 7.5kg now and stands at 61cm at 4 months of age. Last weekend we went back to Penang for the first time and the journey was an adventure - 5 hours drive with only 1 incident of poo up the back! Hahahahhahahaha.....

I'm still exclusively breastfeeding and hoping to continue for as long as I can. Milk expressed during the day at the office is used for feeds the next day while I feed directly at night and throughout the night!

Julian is such a joy - he's smiling and laughing and babbling so much now - I can't wait til he says Mama Dada. And I am indeed blessed to have such a support system around me.

There are so many colleagues pregnant at work now! The men have been productive! And it certainly is a BOY year! I am going to wait for a girl year to get pregnant next - maybe the Dragon year?

And oh yeah! Julian had his hair cut!!!!

BH - Before Haircut

AH - After Haircut

Almost 4 months

....and my babe is blowing bubbles, yakking and sucking his own thumb or fist - whichever is more accessible hahahahaha.....And it's true what they say about when a baby starts blowing bubbles, the mother's hair starts falling off.....My drain cover looks like a Lilliputan head of hair on hair washing days....Aiyo, scary! I'm going bald I feel like.

Yikes, it's almost 4 months now - am still breastfeeding exclusively and I hope to continue for as long as possible. The baby does new things everyday. Tonight, I tried to let him stand and he did manage to carry his own weight for a couple of seconds. I have also started lifting him up by his armpits cos his neck is now much more steady. He lovessss the tv and doesn't like to be carried in a prone position anymore - that's for babies he seems to wail each time someone mistakenly does that.

He doesn't seem to smile so readily for me but he yaks away and smiles at his dad and grandma PJ lots. I really hope my parents also build a close loving relationship with him even though they are so far away and don't spend much time with him at all.....that's one of my biggest worries!

We're going home to Penang soon - in the car, in the car seat. Had a tough time deciding whether to fly or to drive but in the end, cost and the doctor's advice won out - well, she said that driving would be a safer medical option in terms of exposure to foreign virus and etc....the plane is an enclosed, recycled air environment with lots of people all stuck together......Ju Han hopes he can drive safely all the way though.

Am also glad to see and hear the daddy learning how to enjoy his baby more and more. Warms my heart!

Back to Work

So much has happened recently. I’ve gone back to work – this week is Week No. 2 and while I am not crying buckets in the office, I am eager to get off and go home. Hugging my boy and smelling his baby smell is wonderful. I do the same before leaving for work in the morning. Still expressing to breastfeed. Am very very lucky that my office building has a Mothers’ Room where we can express in private and confidence and then keep the milk in a fridge! Also very happy to note that my claim benefits have gone up in my absence so immunizations can at least be partly sponsored….


Last night I laid my hand on my baby’s chest as he slept and feeling his heart beat as his chest rose and fell with each breath is just miraculous. I look forward to seeing him every day and every night, shopping is a non-hobby anymore cos I don’t even feel like going out for long periods of time….2 hours is my max without glancing at my watch every few minutes to check when I need to go, go, go!

He’s changed and grown so much. He’s learning to communicate now with baby talk and lots of smiles and laughs! And sometimes, he’s got this wide doe eyed look which just kills me! We haven’t cut his hair so now it’s like Shibakarikun – you know the grass seedling head that you water and grass grows out of the top of his head? Hahahahahha – Ju Han doesn’t want to cut Julian’s hair – says it’s the only time when the boy can have long hair….