He'll Be Coming Round The Mountain....When He Comes....

Hmmm....I'm spending a night alone here while Ju Han works late tonight. Just penciling in some thoughts to my pregnancy book and had some incredibly nerve-wracking flashes so I thought I'd share with you.

Baby Boy is coming along.....I am now 35 weeks pregnant this coming Wednesday. He will be coming along soon and sitting down and thinking about it just brought home the fact that this is actually the easiest part of the pregnancy - then the delivery (which will also be easy) and after that is where the REAL experience really starts! When he's here!

I am not sure I know how to handle this. I wonder how Ju Han and I will handle it, how will we cope? Will we be stressed out? Or overjoyed and parental mannerisms and attitudes just come naturally? I don't know how I am going to hold him or bathe him or change him! I just told my MIL the other day that I am a planner but I have no idea how I'm going to plan about Baby Boy at all...I mean I can buy all these stuff, but planning how long I will sleep with him or how I would love to breastfeed him if we can both work hard enough at it to make it work...e.t.c......

This is scary! Downright scary! I've always said there will be a Humongous change to our lives but it's never held as much truth as it does now and it will strike home even more when he's come! So, no more just waking up and deciding to go out for breakfast so we just get a shower and throw some clothes on.....but I mean is it really as 'bad' as that? And wouldn't just popping out of bed to peek at him snoozing away cutely and chubbily be worth more than a breakfast outside?

I could go on and on but basically, I just wanted to share that having a baby never seemed as real as it did tonight and never scared me more, as yet....., because he's still in me now. Which is different but not soooo much, and I've had to go through some stuff I've never really gone through before.....but soon he'll be here and life will never be the same again. For myself individually, for Ju Han individually, and for both of us together as a couple. We will have a Baby - a human being we made, together, it's just too big to comprehend! And we will be responsible for him for the rest of our lives!

And EVEN scarier - it's not just that we are responsible for him - but we will care and love him and that will somehow open us up and make us that much more vulnerable to hurt and pain because we do want things to be good for him, and if they aren't, WE're the ones who are going to hurt and worry.

I'm scared. I really am.

A Comfortable Position FINALLY!

Wow! After so many experiments, I have finally found the best bed arrangement for my aching back, swollen feet and burgeoning tummy in this the 34th week of pregnancy!

Here's a pic and as you can see, it took quite a fair bit of organisation - hehehehhehe.....

So, firstly - there is my Original Pillow - I am someone who needs some height to the neck and head so this was a good enough pillow for me pre-pregnancy and huge tummy - nowadays if I sleep on this pillow alone, I can't breathe very well.

Next came the 2 folded up towels to help elevate the Original Pillow - for a time, it managed to counter the
'I have no neck and can't breathe' syndrome.

When it got to be uncomfortable with the bigger, heavier tummy, I started trying out different combos of soft and orignal pillows.....nothing really worked ..... til now that is!

And voila! What do I have - The Original Pillow already elevated slightly with 2 wadded up towels, a Soft Pillow on top of Original Pillow to rest my head, another Soft Pillow to provide a gradual slope so my back doesn't hurt, a Cushion to help reduce the water retention in my feet and last but not least - a Bolster, to bolster support for my back whichever way I'm turned!

Granted, I only sussed this out last night but it worked like a dream - I slept like a baby til 9am this morning!!!!!! Here's hoping there are many more good nights like that!

Jinxed!

My friend definitely jinxed me! Yesterday I was showing her my swollen feet from water retention and she relayed to me her experience where her finger joints were so painful and bloated that she could hardly make a fist! And then she asked me if I had encountered that - the pantang person that I am - I replied, "Touch wood, no!"

I should have crossed my fingers too! Cos this morning, I woke up and felt the bloated painful finger joints!!!!!! AHhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Here are some pics of my swollen feet, ankles and hands.

Swollen Feet at 34 weeks

Swollen ankles!

Left Hand

Right Hand

Do Pregnant Boobs HAVE to grow?

cos...I don't think mine have really grown. And yesterday a friend confirmed it! Boo Hoo!!!!

They did immediately look larger and fuller which is how I deduced I was pregnant but other than that.....

Well, it ain't the size that matters but what's inside eh? :)